Monday, March 27, 2017

When Life Pushes the Introvert out of Me

Sucks. Of course. I have to interact with hooman every. single. day.

My life has surprisingly been turned upside-down.
I was brutally kicked out of my comfort zone. But, hey, they say that's where life begins, right?

This is exactly what happens:
Shenpai's at

But according to the most optimistic woman alive, Mamak, there is always something you can absorb for your own good from every unfortunate event.

Meeting new people, getting involved in social events, being in a crowd, or anything related to a sea of hooman is a definite pain in the ass for me; and that's where life has been dragging me to.

It's not that the dreamer has become a realist, I'm keeping the job I love in the field I always passionate about, but life is life. There will come a time when you have to take a big leap and leave your comfort zone behind. Inarguably exhausting, but still fun. (Don't forget to always look for the fun part, unless you want to turn your life into slavery.)

But let's see from my mother's eyes. She would say that this is a chance to improve my social skill that was, and still is, and will always be, poor. And ultimately, she would say that I'm lucky to have this chance without leaving something I'm always keen on. So, yeah, let me keep seeing from those eyes and let the pessimist inside sleep peacefully for a moment.

A draft from November 2016.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

I don't get it why people
- think it's okay to take pictures of strangers without permission
[- and share it publicly
- and make fun of it]
- tend to consider those who want to understand their beliefs and/or political views as enemies
- don't understand that publicly sharing movie scenes is not acceptable
- get married. pfft.

Friday, January 20, 2017

There is this one funny episode of House, M.D. I watched recently.


The tale was about a genius who drugged himself to lower his IQ so that he didn't feel "isolated or lonely".
It's funny because he HAD to do that in order to communicate with his wife, who, according to him, "was so happy and dumb".
Funny, because when he got his gift back, he was no longer in love with the wife.
Funny, because it proves my theory that you have to be a fool to be deeply in love. OR, vice versa, you'll be one once you're madly in love.

But eventually,

Yea. Say it. "You cynical, cold-hearted b."
I get used to it.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016


Recently watched movies/short movies:
1. Dr. Strange 8/10
2. Piper 7.5/10
3. Geri's Game 8/10
4. Finding Dory 8/10 -- Not that good, tapi toh saya nangis jua.

Pic: Marvel, Disney/Pixar, Joe Daniels

Recently read articles:
Happy Thoughts: Here Are the Things Proven To Make You Happier
by Eric Barker on TIME
"Be optimistic, even to the border of delusion" is the ultimate joke for pessimists.

11 skills every 24-year-old should learn before it's too late
by Eugene Kim on This is Insider
So from these 11 points society expect you to do at your 24, I happened to master the EXACT OPPOSITES of: falling in love, traveling and managing your mind from worrying.

You Asked: Why Can’t I Remember Things?
by Markham Heid on TIME
I read this article merely because forgetful is my middle name. But here is the fun fact about being absent-minded: I can hardly recall any painful memory. Such a bless!

How to Make Someone Fall In Love With You
by Eric Barker on TIME
Instead of focusing on "how", I read all the "what"s as in what makes people think that they're in love.
"It’s called misattribution of emotions. So any emotionally arousing situation has the potential to fool us into thinking we’re in love."
Funny, isn't it?